Thursday, December 13, 2012

Truth Thursdays.

There is an amazing blog out there called Single Dad Laughing, written by Dan Pearce.

He is an amazing writer and his blog is poignant, funny, and wonderful. He recently came out after many, many years and I believe that inspired a post called “The Truth Box”.

In this post, he asked readers to share THEIR personal truths with the following format:


“What everyone thinks is true”

“What actually is true”

This really struck me, especially when reading the next day’s blog, which was a sharing of all the truths that he received from his readers.

Some of them were heartbreaking and some of them were funny.

Some I could relate to and some left me shocked.

All of them made me think, however, what are MY truths? If I were to be vulnerable, and honest, and under a cloak of anonymity, what would I be willing to pull out of my truth box? What fa├žade would I be willing to strip down?

I know many, many confident people in my life, men and women alike, however, even they, the most confident, have a truth in their box…a truth they keep hidden, a truth they haven’t accepted, a truth that maybe is too truthful to share?

I think its part of human nature, no matter how much you believe in what you see is what you get…Is there really one person who puts every single little thing out there?

Or do we all keep a little bit of us to ourselves?

I don’t mean that in a sneaky way, because I know plenty of people who really are exactly who they are…but even they, I am sure there is a deep part of themselves, that maybe they don’t even realize they can share…a truth deep in their own personal truth box.

I know this past year for me; all my truths came spilling out of my box at once.
I actually think I was hiding inside my box, peeping out at the world through a tiny little hole.

I sometimes wonder how good of a mother I am.

I dont have all my sh*t together.

I never got over my Mommy passing away and I still don't know how to communicate with my father.

I have no clue how to love myself.

I made the biggest mistake of my life and  I dont know how I can forgive myself.

Sometimes, I struggle to smile.

I had and am continuing to face a lot of truths about myself...Its a scary thing but I take it day by day and I know that every truth I unravel, every truth I reveal and assess, is one more truth closer to being the most honest and genuine person I can be, for my son and for myself. Having truths IS NOT A BAD THING.

I am NOT ashamed of my truths, because I am AWARE of them, finally. They arent in a box, hidden away from me. They are in front of me, in my face and I actually am HAPPY I can SEE them, and little by little, I am getting better and better at being one hundred percent, ME.

Do you think you could look inside your truth box?

3 comments:

  1. Very deep post. I love that you posted this. I honestly am not sure if I can write inside a "truth box," not just yet. I have an idea of what those are..but sometimes denial is too tempting. Maybe I'll do this myself....

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  2. I don't think I could have looked into my truth box a few years ago but after a long process of dealing with my truths, owning them and moving on from the mistakes of my past, I think that now I would be able to look inside my truth box. I think it's hard to face our truths because we have to admit where we lack and where we need to grow but we also all need to acknowledge all the ways we are amazing. :)

    This is a great post, deep and honest.

    I hope you are having a lovely week my dear and thank you so much for linking up to last week's Aloha Friday Blog Hop.

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    Aloha,

    Jean {What Jean Likes}

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  3. I like this post! I'm a very strong women, raised that way to be a leader not a follower as my parents say. But i still have hidden truths. Thanks for the sweet comment!

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